Red Rocks and Invisible Spirals Part 3
She Said: I approached my visit to Sedona with a completely open mind. Although I was raised Catholic, I don’t ascribe to one particular religious or spiritual philosophy. I take it all in and figure out what works for me, based on what feels right. I trust my intuition above all else, and it usually leads me in the right direction.
I attended every class, workshop and meditation I could squeeze in to my schedule. I noticed immediately that this resort was a place where people went to focus on things they want to manifest in their lives. There was a meditation room called the Crystal Grotto where morning and evening group meditations were held to start and end the day. It was open all day for anyone who wanted to meditate on their own time.
The room was built without a floor. The ground was the same red dirt that was outside. At the entrance, there was a basket, a stack of small pieces of paper, and some pens. A sign instructed guests to write down their intentions for the day and place them in the basket. Then, they were to enter the round room barefoot and walk clockwise through the red dirt, around the fountain in the center, and take the farthest available seat from where they entered. Huge crystals were positioned in each of the four directions: north, south, east, and west. They are believed to magnify the energy in the surrounding environment, making this room an important spiritual place.
I set some intentions in this way while I was there. At this time in my life, my boyfriend of two years was moving in with me. This decision came after many months of contemplation. When we finally chose to cohabitate, I wasn’t sure how I felt about it. There was a nagging feeling telling me something wasn't right. But, since we got along well and cared very much for each other, and since neither one of us was getting any younger, I settled for it. I thought I was happy, but my intuition began telling me otherwise. My intentions were all focused on this issue. I wanted to find a true partner, whether that was him or not. I wanted to find the right energy to match mine and bring balance to my life.
The most significant experience I had that week was an hour-long massage with a lovely woman named Kim. Prior to the massage, we discussed what I hoped to gain from it. I told her of some physical discomfort I hoped to address, but I also said, “I mainly just want to leave here feeling balanced.” We decided to do some energy work. Kim is trained in Quantum Touch Therapy, which she described as Reiki on steroids. I happen to be certified in Reiki, which is an ancient Japanese form of energy healing through touch. So naturally, I was interested in this type of therapy.
It was, in a word, amazing. Kim used only her gentle hands. There were moments when I felt buzzing and tingling through my body. Other times there was intense heat and mild prickling pain. At one point, I felt like I was free-falling. I had to open my eyes to make sure I wasn’t about to hit the ground. But I hadn’t moved from my prostrate position on the massage table. When she finished, I felt more relaxed than I knew I ever could. Kim looked at me with her clear blue eyes and said, “You’re cool. You have such strong energy. You are really in the present. You have something very special.” I thanked her and told her she was cool, too. I appreciated what she said, but I didn’t realize its significance at the time. I walked away knowing something about me had changed.
When I returned home, I knew I needed to hold on to the feelings I discovered in Sedona. I developed a sense of inner peace and happiness while there. I was afraid it would go away as I got back into my stressful work and school schedule. I still continue the yoga practice I started there as a way to reconnect with myself and my experiences in that magical place.
My return from vacation coincided with the arrival of a new employee at my workplace. I did not meet him right away, but I did notice his presence. Although I was attracted to him, I ignored those feelings because I was in a committed relationship. The day I shook his hand, I fell in love. My hand buzzed in his, the way my body did on Kim’s massage table. I had just met my husband.
As soon as I realized this, my relationship began to fall apart. I tried to push aside my feelings and remain committed to the man living in my house. However, all the little issues we had started to become big ones. I realized I was settling for less than what I truly needed in my life. My intuition was guiding me in a different direction than the path I had been on. I had to follow my heart, and we broke up after living together for only three months.
As difficult as that breakup was, I still have the sense of calm I found in Sedona. The intentions I set there began to manifest immediately. It wasn't the outcome I expected, but I have been quite pleasantly surprised. I guess sometimes life gives you what you need instead of what you think you want.